Everybody is getting married... or engaged... o_o...
I feel kinda paranoid.
Yes, I know it's nice for a woman to be independent and have a career. But... to hear women in the office at work who are middle-aged, fat, and downright bitter say how they never wanted to get married... ...
and own like 5 cats...
G-d, please don't let me end up like that. 8'D... or the bitter wife issue thing. The type of women who get married out of pity, desperation, or whatever, and treat their husbands like crap.
I don't want to.
The thing is, I actually don't feel that way.
When my boyfriend was leaving for Germany 2 weeks ago, I actually did hope he would propose to me or something, or make some kind of promise. Neither of those things happened. And no, I wasn't dumped.
Still dating him, actually. But considering our lack of contact so far, I don't see it lasting much longer.
It's just that he's not a phone person, among other issues.
My brain is logically telling me without communication, it won't work lol. Emotionally, however, my heart's telling me I can only get mad so much about this kind of stuff with guys. So I'm currently indifferent. A week ago I was angry and sad.
Buuuuuttt... me going to Germany, alone, I think, would be best for me.
I do need to see the world.
I'm just that Romantic.
But really, the fact that my old girl friends are getting married now does irk me slightly.
I'm kind of jealous.
They found their happiness and placed that happiness within someone else, yet I can't seem to find mine or do that.
I feel so indecisive lately.
Like, I was so sure about everything up until my boyfriend and the airport crap... :/
So maybe I don't have things quite figured out.
I just really need to get to it though... huh... =_=...